It's my last night at home. Come tomorrow night I will be sleeping somewhere between here and Utah. The next night I will be sleeping in the Mountain Time Zone and looking at the Provo stars. It's a wierd feeling, knowing that I will probably never REALLY live at home again. Sure, I'll be back next summer, but that's more of a vacation. And the next summer, who knows where I'll be. So really, this is my last night as a child. Tomorrow as I pull out of my driveway, I grow up. I will be forced to face the world. And I hope I can stand firm when it hits me. I hope I have done enough in my life to keep me on solid ground. And I think I have.
The hardest part of today was saying my goodbyes. This last weekend has been one long farewell. Thursday I went and tanned with dear Squeeks and bid her a marvelous time at UP. Then that night I took a walk with my dad in our old neighborhood by our old house, and then we watched "Sabrina" which is one my all-time favorite movies and was one that my dad and I saw together in the theaters (the Harisson Ford/Julia Ormond/Greg Kinnear version). Friday night I stayed at Kyndra's with Courtney and Christina and we just talked for hours. Sunday I hugged a million people at church and recieved even more Best Wishes. After church I said goodbye to beloved tacos. Almost every Sunday my family eats tacos. I will truly miss them. They were such welcome friends after a long day at church. Later that evening I smelled for the last time (at least for awhile) the sweet aroma of banana bread and chocolate chip cookies. To die for. And finally, Monday, today, I went over to my dad's for my requested Last Supper, taco salad, and a little chat time with the family. Saying goodbye to my dad when I left was hard. I could tell he was having a difficult time but was trying not to show it as I got in the car. I even got teary as I drove down our street. Tonight I went running with Michael and said goodbye to him. We sat at the Hucrest playground for awhile and looked at the stars, the last hometown stars I'll see until probably next summer. Later he brought me by a present his grandparents had gotten me, and we said our farewells. That was harder then I expected.
So all in all, it has been an emotional roller coaster ride these last few days as I have prepared to head out of town. I just want to thank everyone who is reading this for being a part of my life. Most likely if you read my blog, you care somewhat about what I at least have to say, and that means a heck of a lot to me. Many of you have been dear friends to me and have given me so many good and fun memories that I will forever cherish. I really treasure our friendship. To my family, I love you all so much. When people go to college, friends fade, but is comforting knowing my family will always be there for me. Thank you.
Well, I guess this is it - my last post from this town, the town where my parents were born, where I was born, where I have lived my entire life. Yeah, ok. So I'll miss it. But I know I will have an incredible time at school, and I will definitely keep everyone informed on what I am doing while I am there. Just continue to read my blog. I love reading people's comments.
From HERE, signing off. See you THERE.
1 comment:
Jessica! that was a nice goodbye post. It put things into a way different perspective, definately the part about never actually "living" at home anymore. weird. I hope things are going well for you, the move and everything. Can't wait to hear from you. Good Luck and have tons of fun. talk to you soon.
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